What. The. Hell. Am I doing with my life?
I never imagined being 27 and stuck in a job that will take me no where in life (granted I do love cooking, and well, I'm not so bad at it). I have a wonderful husband who I love more than life itself. I'm having a hard time though figuring out if I'm good enough for him. We don't really have a lot in common. I generally just go along with whatever crazy thing he wants to do. My friends are his friends...I figure if he were to not be around anymore I would be friendless... damn. I don't really like going out and doing stuff with other people, and I sure as heck don't like having to always do something at every minute.What's wrong with just sitting at home and enjoying a good ghost show or painting a pretty picture?
I don't know...I just feel like at 27 I would have had everything figured out, but alas married for two and a half years, no baby, no house, no college degree (or even an associates), and no organizational skills to keep my house oh-so-neat like a good wife. Whatever...so what if my sister-in-law is a newly 27 year old with a baby and already on her 2nd house. She graduated 3rd in her class and graduated college with honors, and plays three different instruments. She got a job right out of college, and gets to enjoy life. While with me I'm just stuck at home because if I do as much stuff as Bryan does no one will be home to do laundry and clean the bathroom and change the gosh darn toilet paper roll. Without me nothing would get done and then he wonders why I just like to sit and watch some TV after work. Um, no, I get home 3 hours before him, and I take that time to get come cleaning done. Otherwise, I just get mad when he just sits there and takes this cleaning time as time to play on his Xbox or goes and talks on his phone
I just hope that someday I can get my life together, but I feel like it's not in the cards for me at all. I'm not super educated, I'm lazy as hell, and just mediocre at everything.
I'll let you know if things work out. Maybe next time I'll create a life list and one-by-one accomplish everything on said list.
GoodLuck
